Yay! I get to go home!!!!!! Lol (Taken with instagram)
I am in a complete tizzy. I am being ignored by the one person I am supposed to be able to count on at any and all times, my husband.
At what point do we let complacancy enter our lives? When do we roll over and let life just bog us down and kick our ass while we take it? I can't remember the day, or howthe hour. There's no defining moment. But I'm here.
I was a fun girl. Go to shows, the beach, house parties...im smart, interesting. Healthy mistrust in government, great book and music collection. Good...no...great friends. I was hot. Funny. Good in bed and could suck a Orange thru a straw. Open minded. Happy. Well traveled.
Sooo...what the fuck.
How did I reach here...? 2 kids. Grown. But couldn't last a day in the real world. Married, but spend every day and night alone. Educated but working at s job where I'm underpaid and appreciation doesn't exist.
It's not like I'm not fighting it.
I ask to be taken out. A walk on the beach...a drive....watch a netflix or redbox movie. Is it wrong that I will accept what I've become in trade for attention from the one I love?
Is it wrong that is like to be the object of his thoughts? Is it much to want him to be in the same room with me while he's home? Am I being overly sensative when he walks in, past me and into our room where he stays?
I can accept growing up...growing older...I understand that adulthood changes your perspective. But do u have to trade your Passion, your self worth, your hapiness?????
At what point do we let complacancy enter our lives? When do we roll over and let life just bog us down and kick our ass while we take it? I can't remember the day, or howthe hour. There's no defining moment. But I'm here.
I was a fun girl. Go to shows, the beach, house parties...im smart, interesting. Healthy mistrust in government, great book and music collection. Good...no...great friends. I was hot. Funny. Good in bed and could suck a Orange thru a straw. Open minded. Happy. Well traveled.
Sooo...what the fuck.
How did I reach here...? 2 kids. Grown. But couldn't last a day in the real world. Married, but spend every day and night alone. Educated but working at s job where I'm underpaid and appreciation doesn't exist.
It's not like I'm not fighting it.
I ask to be taken out. A walk on the beach...a drive....watch a netflix or redbox movie. Is it wrong that I will accept what I've become in trade for attention from the one I love?
Is it wrong that is like to be the object of his thoughts? Is it much to want him to be in the same room with me while he's home? Am I being overly sensative when he walks in, past me and into our room where he stays?
I can accept growing up...growing older...I understand that adulthood changes your perspective. But do u have to trade your Passion, your self worth, your hapiness?????
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